I recently returned home from a 10 day Vipassana meditation course, which I currently am in progress of writing a post about now, but I realized that I hadn’t been blogging very much at all anymore, and its something that’s been on my mind for a while, so I wanted to give a short update as to what’s been going on in my life over the past few months.
This blog site is now just over a year old, and I am amazed by the progress I have made towards it, I didn’t really think I had it in me when I first started writing for this blog, I was full of Self-doubt from the very beginning. But today as I look back on some of my posts I have written I am quite amazed by some of the reflections I have had.
“If you want to make God laugh,
tell him your plans… ”
I find myself always trying to plan out my life. My mind LOVES it. Every day it goes, “alright, this is what we are going to do today, and tomorrow we are going to do this, then next month well be doing this, and one year from now we will be here ? .”
And the problem with this is, I spend all this time incessantly planning out what I will be doing a few months from now, I will plan out this whole elaborate plan, and then it never happens. Ever. Then I can just see God laughing at me because of course God sees the big picture and knows exactly where I am going in life, and I do not.
But all I need to do is sit back, relax and enjoy the ride, knowing that it will be wonderful.
And even though I know this on a deeper level, my mind instead wants to plan out exactly where the ride will go, and in precisely the way that I want it to. Which is really quite absurd if you think about it. But I believe it is human nature to want to try to control our lives, plan them out, and then be surprised when our plans don’t go as planned.
Today marks the 1 year anniversary of the day I quit the Amway business, so I thought it was the perfect time to write about my experience in Amway! This is actually a funny story which I don’t really talk too much about it anymore, but at one point it was all I thought and cared about… Building the Amway business was my purpose. Or that’s what I thought anyways…
Looking back I feel like a fool for being swept up into this illusion, but they got me!!! I dunno what to say, but at the time of this experience, I really truly believed that I was right and everyone else who didn’t ‘get it’ was wrong. I was as stubborn as a mule.
It was the strangest thing though, because of how drastically I went from being super keen to build this business one day, to deciding to quit the very next… But, okay, I am getting way ahead of myself here. Let’s go back to the start…
What do you believe happens after death? No, I really want you to think about this because honestly few people have a solid belief. We generally never even think or talk about death, although it worries every one of us, and is a fear amongst many in life because we don’t really know what happens, and that is a mystery we will solve only when we die.
“Do you believe in aliens?” He asked.
“Yes, of course, I think you would have to be completely living in a bubble, or just completely ignorant to believe we are the only form of life in the entire universe,” I replied.
My words seemed to upset him slightly, and I could tell that he held a different belief than I did. Or maybe he just wasn’t sure what he believed, but he seemed rattled by my sturdy belief in the unknown.
“In a wide variety of traditions, a Spiritual Journey is seen as a path toward one or more of the following: a higher state of awareness, the perfection of one’s own being, wisdom, or communion with God or with creation.”
I thought I would write about my spiritual awakening(s) I have had over time… Something I reflect back on frequently but I haven’t really written about it before, probably because I had no idea where to start… But I find writing to be my greatest tool for self-reflection, and I think this is something I need to reflect over!
I believe that my spiritual journey started naturally when I was born, I was constantly being influenced by the people around me. I grew up in a Catholic home, went to church and even attended a Catholic school for my entire schooling years. So I do have a background in the Catholic religion, I have even completed the first three sacraments.
I just felt like religion seemed weird to me, all the traditions, ceremonies and rituals. But at that time in my life, it was the only thing I knew, and they did still speak a lot of truth, but there was something that was missing in it for me…