I recently returned home from a 10 day Vipassana meditation course, which I currently am in progress of writing a post about now, but I realized that I hadn’t been blogging very much at all anymore, and its something that’s been on my mind for a while, so I wanted to give a short update as to what’s been going on in my life over the past few months.
This blog site is now just over a year old, and I am amazed by the progress I have made towards it, I didn’t really think I had it in me when I first started writing for this blog, I was full of Self-doubt from the very beginning. But today as I look back on some of my posts I have written I am quite amazed by some of the reflections I have had.
There is a lot going on lately, that I feel the need to write about now, although I do find it quite difficult where to even begin, considering how chaotic everything is, but alas I will do my best on this day January 31st, 2018.
It seems like setting new years resolutions has gotten a bad reputation over the years. Nobody wants to make them anymore because we know that more often than not, January 2nd rolls around, and we have already broken our resolution. So we give up before the first week has passed.
I have a better way to go about it, that for one, takes all the initial pressure off of January 1st as being the day where major life changes happen, and instead we all should make intentions on what we would like to accomplish at some point during the new year. The intentions you set do not need to be started on the first day of the new year, heck they don’t even need to be started in the first month. Heck you could wait until the very last month of the year, and still accomplish the intention you set for yourself back in January, although I do not recommend this, and you should keep your awareness on your primary intentions as often as possible if you want to accomplish them at least.
As the year 2017 comes to an end, I can’t help but always take some time to reflect back on everything I have accomplished, or not accomplished during the year. It is always quite fascinating for me to look back and see how far I have come in just a year, thinking wow, if I could do all that in a year, think of how much I can do in 5 or 10 years.
Thinking big picture like that has always been my strength. I see long-term, what my life can look like in 10 years if I keep doing the things I am doing every day. I see visions of my future self and that is what keeps me moving forward in life. I visualize myself achieving long before it happens, in reality, some goals that I desire.
Its been a few months now since I returned from my Revelstoke Adventure, and it has been a time in which my spiritual growth has accelerated greatly. It seems I am waking up at a faster rate than I had in the past, and with any spiritual awakening, you begin to question, well who am I?
The person I thought I was this entire life so far is not actually who I am. Not in the same sense after you experience an awakening anyways. You begin to question everything you once thought you were and what you aren’t.
I have realized that I am not my name, my age, or the country I live in. I am not even my thoughts, those are just a by-product of my experience. I am, and always have been, the observer of my life. I am the pure/ conscious awareness, the overlooker of my life.
“When the ego dies, the soul awakes” -Mahatma Gandhi.
So I haven’t posted on my blog site now for a while, and at one point I even considered scrapping it completely. You see, I’ve been battling with my ego for a while now, and it was trying to convince me that I couldn’t do this, that I wouldn’t succeed at writing this blog, and I should just give up… I’m wiser than that now and decided not to listen to my ego and instead went off of what my soul wanted to do, and the soul wants me to keep the blog and to continue writing about matters I find important, so that’s what I’ll do. I know who has my best interests at heart now, and it certainly isn’t my ego.