My thoughts on the California Wildfires

It is 7pm on December 7th, 2017 as I sit safely in my Calgary home. Currently, as I write this, forest fires are devastating California and there is nothing I can do.

Helpless. That’s how I feel.

That’s how everyone feels when something like this happens. We all want to help, (well most people anyway) but often we don’t know how to help, so we give some money and that’s good, but we always wish we could do more… But it would be crazy to board a plane right now and go down there, so instead, I write, in hopes to raise some awareness on this problem.

2017 has been the worst year for fires across the globe. Extreme heat and lack of rain have been contributing factors to this problem which doesn’t seem like it will be solved anytime soon. Climate change would appear to not be a crazy myth after all, and we are starting to really see the magnitude of this problem. When an entire state is on fire and dealing with so many apocalyptic types of destruction, one starts to worry, what if that happened where I live?

2017 was actually the first year that I was actually scared of a forest fire. I had never thought of them as being so devastating until this year whilst I was living in Revelstoke and B.C was on fire. It was scary. And the constant loom of smoke didnt make things enjoyable. Eventually the rain came and put them out, but they destroyed a lot of homes before they were put out.

I can’t even imagine what they are going through right now. It really must feel like the end of the world to them. Your whole world gets thrown upside down in the blink of an eye. I’ve never experienced that before, and I hope I never do, but with the ignorance of most people on our planet surrounding climate change, I worry that we might see much more destruction before things improve.

People just don’t seem to care, “eh it’s too late, its too far gone, besides ill be dead soon anyway so who cares?”  They say.

California has always been a favorite spot of mine. Maybe it was because of the fear of the big one happening, but I have been lucky enough to travel to California more times than I’ve traveled anywhere else in the world, even in my own country. I guess subconsciously I truly believed that one day this would happen, so I needed to see Cali before it was destroyed.

The “big one” is an idea that has been predicted for quite some time now stating that a big earthquake from the San Andreas fault would inevitably happen one-day causing massive destruction to Los Angeles and surrounding area. I remember when I went to Disney land as a young child, my mom was in a state of fear the entire trip for this big disaster to happen. Ironically, we did experience a mini earthquake while we slept one night, waking my mom up in a panic.

Read more about the big one here:

Now I know I was talking about the fires happening which is not only terrible and destructive enough as is, but there are also many earthquakes happening around the area. Mostly down in San Diego, which isn’t far off from Los Angeles, and I worry that these smaller earthquakes could, in fact, trigger the big one. There have been over 40 earthquakes in that area over the past 24 hours alone…

It breaks my heart to think about what’s going on down there right now. I spent 5 hours last night just doing some research on the current situation after being made aware that California was currently on fire from a posting on Instagram. (I make an effort not to watch the news whatsoever, so finding out about things can take me awhile sometimes) At the time of this writing, there isn’t too much information out there, but the fires started randomly on Monday and they are already suspecting criminal intent on setting these fires.

Not to mention the winds are stronger than they have ever seen, to the point where they had to add an extra category to their wind rating chart. Red was the highest on the chart before, signifying extreme conditions, but now they have added a purple category beyond red to just really make a point of how bad these winds are. Some people are pointing to it being “created” by the weather making tools they have. I really don’t know where I stand on this yet, I need more information, but that’s the rumor that’s spreading at this time.

Wind and fire do not mix, and the progress those amazing firefighters were able to do has now unfortunately been diminished due to these crazy winds that are spreading the fires quickly and ferociously destroying even more by the minute.

It certainly is not looking very good for California at the moment, and with no rain, in the forecast, I wonder what is going to happen to paradise…. The fires have turned it into a hell like environment.

One thing is possible, and that is Southern California will be in for a very tough time over the next months, but the good news is the world will wake up and realize that yes climate change is, in fact, a problem and we need to start doing more about it. Even if they discover that the fires were set intentionally, (which I won’t be surprised if they were…)  It still isn’t normal to be so dry at this time of year, lack of rain is causing a pretty big problem, and this should concern the entire world, not just California.

Aside from fires, the earth is also experiencing many hurricanes, floods and other natural disasters that are happening around the globe. It looks like we are getting rid of the old to make way for the new because the way I see it, through chaos comes transformation.

Right now, to California, it may look like the end of the world to them, but in time they will come to realize that everything happens for a reason, and the reason this is happening is for the planet to wake the hell up and start demanding change. Life shouldn’t be the way it is, but because we have lived under this system for so long now, it’s hard to realize that this isn’t right.

When disaster strikes though, and you lose everything except your life, you start to question things. You realize that life you had previously was all just a façade, and you are much more than just a nice home or fancy car. Those things don’t matter to them anymore.

In the moments of catastrophe, one might experience, what I call Pure awareness.

This is when you lose all sense of self, and you are only aware of what is happening in the present moment. You realize that nothing else matters but only what’s happening right here, right now. All the things you previously worried about seem to vanish completely from thought, and you are left with only awareness. The awareness of who you truly are. You begin to see through the illusions that have made up life so far and what we have been led to believe all these years.

We are all human beings, we all bleed the same blood, and experience the same feelings and emotions. We have a strong inherent desire to help those in need, even tiny critters who get trapped in the burning fire as one man proved when jumped out of his car and raced towards the burning forest in order to save a bunny. Yes, he risked his life for a rabbit.



Humanity is good, we will one day soon fully restore faith in humanity, but for the moment a man saving a bunny rabbit is humbling enough. It shows us that there is always light even in the darkest moments.

It will be a trying time for mankind, but nevertheless, we will grow so much and learn our true divinity and that we are all connected, and we must stay connected throughout these hard times in order to create the new world that we are destined to create.

With that being said, my thoughts and prayers are in California, and I hope everyone including all the animals, remains out of harm’s way and will learn and grow greatly through this terrible experience, so we can build a greater world from the ashes.

“Sometimes you just need to go through some stuff to really appreciate
life and understand what it means to persevere, overcome, and have faith.”

May Peace and love be with you

How to overcome Self-doubt

How to overcome Self-doubt

“The only thing that can stop you, is the doubt that you carry in your mind…” 

Google defines self-doubt as a lack of confidence in oneself and one’s abilities. Which is a short but completely accurate definition of what we all experience in our day to day lives.

We all have that voice inside, that tells us what we can and cant do… More often than not, it is telling us why we cant does something, the risks involved, what your family might think of you, and heaven forbids what happens if you fail!?

Self-doubt can paralyze someone from following their dreams, and keep them chained to a cubicle their entire life a slave to the system… Not realizing what they could have done if only they had gotten a firm grasp on that voice called self-doubt and told it to take a hike.

I had this astounding vision, not very long ago, which was the dream life I have always wanted to live. This vision involved me writing for my blog as well as building my own company, from ANYWHERE in the world; sitting on a train traveling through Europe, hanging out in my ocean view room somewhere in South East Asia, or even sitting in a local coffee shop deep in the mountains… I am free to go anywhere I want, whenever I want too. I am also free of any financial concern whatsoever, never having to worry about bills again. And on top of all this, I am also helping thousands upon thousands of people create better lives for themselves, thus making the world a better place!

But, before I could even think about it much longer, a well-known voice (self-doubt) decided to voice her opinion…

“You can’t do that…. What are you crazy?! It’s just too hard, plus it’s already been done before, you’re way too late to the party to try now, besides don’t you know it’s way out of your comfort zone…

I almost listened too, that’s the stupid thing! I literally was about to take this negative Nancy’s advice, and not go through with finally going after the life of my dreams, and settling for the life of mediocrity instead…

Isn’t it absolutely crazy how our minds work! I know this vision is what I deeply want, It is what I have wanted since I was a little girl, well the traveling part anyways, although I have also always known I would do some sort of writing.

But already my mind has decided it’s scared and wants to run away in fear. Because yes, this will be extremely challenging, it’s bigger than me, I will need help, I will need to study, and learn so many new skills. It will push me completely out of my comfort zone and really test all my limits.

I am terrified to do this, I have no idea where to even begin. However, there is something very different about me now than who I was in the past… I am not even sure when it happened, it was probably over a period of time. Now, I have this voice in my head that is extremely positive, and it encourages me to go after my dreams, instead of the negative Nancy voice telling me I can’t. Let’s call this voice, Positive Pete… Pete is much stronger, and a more authoritative voice too. So when I do get those thoughts of self-doubt, I stop myself and say, ‘No you can do this, you got this, you can do anything you want!’

The confidence I have in myself is getting stronger every day. It is a very liberating feeling too because you basically stop caring about what other people think of you. Like now, I go to the gym without any makeup, actually, I very rarely wear makeup at all anymore because I feel more comfortable with who I am, and I am not trying to impress others.

I had to realize though, that everyone was living their lives as best they could, and I had to remember that they don’t really care about what you say or do. Well, some people still do, but do you really actually care what they think anyway? You shouldn’t. Let it go. Everyone is living their own life, they aren’t worried about yours. They are having a completely different life experience than you are, and you don’t know what they are dealing with, so why do you care if they think you look silly wearing that yellow raincoat to work… You will be prepared when the rain falls and stay nice and dry, meanwhile, they will be soaking wet by the time they get into work. Then who’s gonna look silly!!!

Okay, I am getting off topic, what were we talking about? Oh right! Self-doubt.

Well, I guess caring what others think of you will go hand in hand with self-doubt. Those two are like best buds, they feed off one another. If you think you are stupid and bad and useless (I am using words I don’t like here to prove a point) and then you hear about how someone else that you barely even know said you were stupid, naturally you are going to believe it 100 times more.

However, if you tell self doubt to take a hike, and listen to positive Pete, who thinks you are amazing and wonderful and full of potential (which you are btw) and then you hear about how that lady down the road that you met once at a neighborhood picnic said that you are “strange” because you brought chili to a picnic, then you will easily shrug that off because you know how great you are, and that everyone loves your chili!

I get it though, we live in a world where we are constantly comparing ourselves to others. Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, etc, are all focusing on how awesome someone’s life is. I totally can relate to that. I enjoy using Instagram, and I will spend a little time each day just looking at other people traveling, and I feel extremely jealous. Then I go and post my pictures, and I only post ones that are cool and it looks like I live this amazingly awesome and fun life. What they don’t see though, is the countless nights that I sit alone in my room, staring at my vision board, wondering when my life will truly take off… But I would never share that on Instagram, only the fun stuff!

So you get my point, don’t compare yourself to others, ever. Not on social media, not at work, not at school, not even at the gym (this is a terrible place to compare, you have no idea how long they’ve been at it for, and how mentally difficult their diet of only brown rice, broccoli and chicken is.) I like food too much, and I also love the lifestyle I have, so I will probably never look like those super fit looking girls, and I am okay with that.

However, it did take me a long time to stop comparing myself other and not care what they thought of me. I wish I would have sooner because I am a hell of a lot happier now that I don’t, and the self-doubt is a lot less loud and obnoxious as well, shes still there, just a lot quieter and I can usually silence her in a matter of seconds.

Is it weird that I give the voices in my head genders and names…?
Probably, but that’s okay because I don’t care even if it is weird, I am gonna do it anyways!

Okay so lets recap here, this is what I learned from my experiences.

  1. Self-doubt can and should be sent away as soon as the thoughts come. Replace them with positive affirmations, such as, I am awesome, I am amazing, I can do anything I want, I am full of potential.
  2. Self-doubt can be silenced when you quit caring what others think of you
  3. Self-doubt gets fed when we compare ourselves to other people, so please do yourself a favor and stop doing that.
  4. Find a group of friends you can be yourself around, and that won’t judge you, or make you feel bad if you make a mistake. I have a very small but tight group of friends, but I know that if I fail, they will be there to help me up, dust me off, and tell me to keep going forward.
  5. Accept that self-doubt will likely always be there, even just a little bit, but don’t give it much power. Show that negative Nancy self-doubt voice who’s the boss! Your future self will thank you.

Thanks for reading 🙂 Happy journey!

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Why you need to believe in yourself

How to avoid regrets on your deathbed

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How to avoid regrets on your deathbed

There’s been quite a bit of talk lately about the regrets that people come to realize when they are on their death bed. There comes a time, when all that you are able to do is look back and reflect on your life and the choices you made. You spend your final days, weeks or months looking back at what went right, and what went wrong in your life.

For most, they experienced extreme clarity and wisdom upon looking back on their lives and formed regrets on how they lived life. A palliative nurse was counseling the dying during their last few days on earth, and she documented the top regrets she heard from those at the end of their lives.

You can read the full article here, Top five regrets of the dying.

But something I did notice, was that people do not regret the things they did in life, but they regret the things they didn’t do…

“No one on his deathbed ever said, I wish I had spent more time on my business.”
-Paul Tsongas

In this post, I will go through the top 5 regrets experienced by people on their deathbed and hope to give you some tips on how to avoid such regrets when your time comes. These are just the main regrets, and while I am not saying you won’t still feel some regrets, hopefully, this will prevent the biggest ones.

I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself,
not the life others expected of me.

This was the most common regret of all. When people reached the end of their life, they had time to reflect back on the lives they had and deeply regret not being true to themselves and what they really wanted to do in life. They wished they hadn’t just done what everyone told them they needed to do and would have rather had the courage to follow their hearts.

Falling into this trap is very common. It’s terribly unfortunate, but alas it is most common for people to do. We always deep down inside knows what our hearts want, but many fail to listen to it and instead does what everyone else thinks is the “best” way to live. Just because everyone else is doing it, doesn’t mean you have to as well, and even though it may have worked well for others, doesn’t guarantee it’ll work for you.

How to avoid:

  • Learning to listen to that voice inside is very important in order to not feeling regrets on your deathbed.
  • Taking a chance on yourself and spending some time getting to know yourself,
    read: Why getting to know yourself is so important in life
  • Once you know who you truly are inside, (hint you are not your name) you will realize exactly what you need to do in life, and the path will unfold for you naturally.
  • Learning to quiet the mind through meditation, or by other peaceful activities such as yoga or going on nature walks. By doing so, you will be able to hear your inner self-speak, and what it truly wants for your life, and it wants whats best for you! Its never too late to start! Even if you just started painting, like you’ve always wanted to do, then do it! You never know what could happen until you try!

I wish I hadn’t worked so hard.

This one was mostly said by men, wishing they had spent more time with their families or more time doing the things they loved instead of working their days away at the office. They wished they hadn’t worked so many hours overtime, missing countless family dinners, birthdays, special events, etc. Women also said this, but not as often as men do to the fact that women were usually at home with the babies during that era. Spending too much time working is, of course, a common regret, which can be avoided with an opened mind. We are after all conditioned to think that we need to work (this much) in order to feel accomplished, or successful in life… This belief we hold is so limiting because by spending all your time at work, you don’t have the time then to do the things in life that make you happy, thus causing regrets at the end….

How to avoid:

  • Don’t work so much. Its easier said than done I know, but realizing that this is a very common regret amongst people must make you prompt the question why…? Why do people regret working so much? Maybe when you get to the end of your life, you realize that all that time you spent working in order to afford a fancy car, or a nice home filled with a bunch of nice stuff was all useless now. It’s all meaningless, you don’t take it with you when you die. You realize that you’ll never get the time back from work, and you can miss so many wonderful experiences in life by having to work a rigid schedule.
  • Find out your true passions in life, and then do them instead of working. Then you will never feel like you worked a day in your life because you felt like you were playing!
  • Realize that you don’t need millions of dollars to be “happy” as I learned while reading this book: Book Review: Playing the matrix Happiness is the most important thing we should strive for in life, above all else.
  • Practice living minimally, that way you do not have to work so damn much to pay for all your stuff because you won’t have much! Cut back on life’s little luxuries, so that you can afford to not spend so many hours of time behind the desk. You will realize that at the end of your day you didn’t even miss your Starbucks drink, or $15 lunch, and you greatly enjoyed being able to get out of work an hour earlier to go for an afternoon walk at the park. You don’t always need to spend money to be happy, after all, its the little things in life.

I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.

Many people suppress how they feel inside in order to please others, and not cause any conflict, or because they are scared what someone might think of them. By doing so, they end up settling for mediocracy and following the herd,  never allowing themselves to reach the potential they are truly capable of. Before they know it, illness starts taking over because of all the negativity they’ve kept bottled inside and they begin going downhill from there.

How to avoid:

  • Courage is not something you obtain, its something you have had inside you all along, you just need to remember this, and go find the courageous you.
  • When you begin to learn about yourself, you begin to form truths about who you are, and when you start to build your life on the foundation of your truth, you realize that you have the courage to express your true feelings to others.
  • March to the beat of your own drum, and don’t let others hold you back because they will certainly try…. People don’t like to see others advance and progress through life, which is why you will lose people along the way. They won’t like the new you, and that’s okay because you are living true to yourself, and that’s all that matters.
  • The best thing you can do is help them realize they too are living life all wrong, and show them the way to a more fulfilling life where you can be whoever you want to be.

I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

Everyone misses their friends when they are dying, it’s a very common regret amongst everyone. Many people become so caught up in the day to day tasks and deadlines that they put their old friends on the side burner and never manage to pick the relationship back up. People often realize the true power of friendship only when it is already too late, and they spend their final moments wishing they hadn’t lost them over the years.

How to avoid:

  • No matter how busy your life gets, which if you have been following along, working too much is also a big regret, but no matter how busy it gets always make time for lifelong friends.
  • If they don’t reach out to you, reach out to them first. I am sure they are living their lives waiting for you to call them, and you’re waiting for them to call you. Make the first move and reconnect! You’ll be happy you did, and better yet, you won’t regret this one in your final days.
  • True lifelong friends are hard to come by, so making time for the ones you have in your life will give you a peace of mind, and also aids in loneliness which is a big problem when we reach old age. Even having one true friend will be a benefit.

I wish that I had let myself be happier.

Ah, there it is, happiness. A huge issue for a lot of people because it’s so open-ended. Happiness is a mysterious thing that people strive for all their lives, saying oh once I get such and such, then I’ll be happy. So they wait, and wait, and wait, and finally, they get what they wanted, and they feel happy for a week or two, and then they sink right back down into the hole. Happiness is not something you can buy, it’s not something that someone can give you, its something that you must find on your own, and the wonderful thing about happiness is you can be happy anywhere you want in the world, and in cases which some would call extreme suffering. Happiness is a state of mind, which means it doesn’t rely on outside factors. It’s something you can be at any moment throughout the day, regardless of how much money you have in the bank, or if you are in a loving relationship.

How to avoid:

  • Don’t fall into the trap that so many have fallen into over the years, the comfort zone is a sticky trap that can be very hard to crawl out of. Ask yourself, what would make you happier in your daily life and then work towards that state. (Note, do not use money as a thing that will make you happier, or any material possessions for that matter. Find happiness in things that cannot be taken away from you)
  • Don’t fall into the trap that fear has strategically laid out if you manage to lose your fear of death (which you will once you lead a fulfilling life) you will realize that there is absolutely nothing to fear, other than fear itself.
  • Happiness is a state of mind, it is a choice. You can either choose to be happy or unhappy. There is no crime in being happy, sure some might think you’re strange for being so happy, but honestly who cares? We are all headed to the same place, so why not enjoy the journey now before its too late!? Go and be the happy, positive, full of life person you were born to be!

That’s all folks! I am sure there are more regrets people face on their deathbed, but I just took the top 5 regrets. I hope you found this useful and you will start or continue to strive towards living a great life! When you reach the inevitable deathbed, you won’t be full of regrets, but full of great memories and experiences about how you broke the mold and starting living life on your own terms!

“The best way to deal with death is to live in a
fully conscious, compassionate, loving way.
Don’t wait until you’re on your deathbed to recognize that
this is the only way to live.”

-Morrie Schwartz

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What does success mean to you?

Success means different things to different people, which can lead to confusion when you are going after what you believe success is because it might be completely different to someone else. At the end of the day though, it is down to you to decide what success means to you. Which is what we will try to figure out in this post…

So quick now! What does success mean to you!??? 

Is success having a lot of money in the bank, or having a big house or a fancy car? Maybe its simply having a happy and healthy family, or maybe success to you just means living life ho, however, hell you want to and not caring what others think…

I personally lean towards the last one there, my definition of living a successful life is to live life on my own accord and do whatever makes me happy in every moment… This means, that I am successful right here and right now because I have chosen to sit down and write this post because it is making me happy to do so. If I am constantly putting a limit on my success, well that could mean I am constantly chasing it never knowing when I finally caught it. So I just tell myself I am already successful because I do whatever the hell I want.

But this isn’t about me, this is about you and figuring out how you define success…

The actual definition of success is:

  • The accomplishment of an aim or purpose.
  • A person or thing that achieves desired aims or attains prosperity is successful.
  • The attainment of popularity or profit.

Success in life cannot be summed up by one term really. It is in relationships, financial, lifestyle, everything really… So sure you may be “SUCCESSFUL” in the financial department and have millions in the bank, but you fail when it comes to relationships. So does that mean you are successful?

Well yes, it sure does, if your definition of success was to have a lot of money in the bank. But most people don’t actually define success like that anymore, it is much broader than that.

If you want to be successful in life, you are going to be going against the current, it is an uphill battle. But it is worth it at the top, that I can guarantee!

Have you ever gone on a really long hike, and after about 10 minutes of walking uphill you want to quit and turn back? I know I have.. multiple times. But I never have quit, I always see it through to the end, and guess what, I feel like a million bucks everytime I do finish what I started. Why do I tell you this? Well because during this climb to success, you are going to want to quit. A voice inside you will be there saying, “let’s just quit, let’s go back, life was easier before we started to take this journey…”

You must ignore that voice and keep going if you ever want to live an extraordinary life.

By having a growth mindset, and constantly trying to become better, you have no option but to start to become goal orientated, which will, in turn, lead you to build a great life for yourself in every single area you seek to improve.

Always be in the process of growing, improving and changing and you will no doubt become successful. No matter how you choose to define success!

If you want to be successful, follow these three simple steps

  1. Know what you’re doing
  2. Love what you’re doing
  3. Believe in what you are doing

Now it is your turn to decide for yourself what success truly means to you. It may change over time, I know mine did, but simply having a general idea of what truly is important to you in life will give you the courage and the strength to go up that mountain and be successful on your own terms!

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Book Review: Playing the matrix

I have been a long-time believer in the law of attraction, also known from the well-known movie & book, The Secret, which explains that our thoughts create things and that we are powerful creators of our own realities.

When I was 16 years old I watched the new movie at the time “The Secret”, and I remember watching it and my intuition was jumping with joy because it knew the law of attraction had enormous truth to it, and it was a sudden realization that I am the creator of my reality, and ever since that day, I have been completely hooked on the idea.

Since day 1, I have fully and undoubtedly believed in the idea that Thoughts become things, and we are the creators of our own realities. I’ve read many books, watched many movies & documentaries on the subject, and I experienced marvelous things happen in my life using the principles, I have tried to learned as much as I possibly could on the subject.

However, like most people who have discovered this great secret in life, it doesn’t always work out the way we wanted it too, which unfortunately causes a lot of people to stop believing in their wonderful powers. We ask the universe for something, we believe it is coming, and then it fails to show up in the time frame we gave it. What gives?

Or maybe we ask the universe for something, someone in particular, and it never happens, or maybe it does happen and it didn’t turn out as you expected it too. So whats going on, why isn’t this working?? The experts make it seem so easy!

Well, I didn’t know for a long time why I wasn’t manifesting everything I was asking for with ease. I actually thought that it didn’t work at times because I would ask for a certain person, and it never panned out the way I had intended. So what was up? Why wasn’t I creating like the flawless creator I considered myself to be… I figured by now, my life would have taken off, but it hadn’t yet, or was I still in liftoff?

I remember thinking a while back, that if I had got everything I wanted in life all at once tomorrow morning, would that be as fun as say, strategically plotting the dreams of your life up along perfect moments on this journey of life?

And the answer turned out to be,  no, of course not, getting everything tomorrow morning wouldn’t be nearly as fun, and so suddenly I realized that everything I had asked for in the past was for sure on its way, at the perfect time. Until then I can continue to learn and grow as much as I can daily.

So I have been doing a lot of new things lately, I started doing yoga and meditating consistently, and I have also been reading a lot more than usual. My realizations are becoming very great now, and I wanted to share this one with you all that I discovered about the law of attraction while reading this book!

Playing the Matrix-


I have been obsessed with reading lately, and so I discovered a brand new (Oct 31, 2017) book called “Playing the Matrix” and oh boy, it was like finding the missing piece to the law of attraction puzzle I have been trying to put together.

It’s so unbelievably simple! Like its almost magic how easy this is! And we have it all wrong!

Below is the manifesting matrix that the writer goes into great detail on in the book, which I would recommend anyone who knows about and/or understands the law of attraction to take a look at this book because it honestly makes everything a lot clearer, and simpler!


Now I am not going to tell you everything about the book because then you don’t need to read it, but I will share with you my personal aha moment!

If you look at the bottom part of the chart, the 6 columns, you will see 3 green columns, 1 blue, 1 yellow and 1 red column.

What the author suggests is that instead of trying to manifest/create our lives using the right side of the chart, for example, I want this specific person to be in a relationship with, Or I want to be hired at a specific company doing only this job. Even though we can still ask for these things and receive them, it really is a hit or miss chance. He instead suggests that if we started first on the left side, with none other than happiness itself, everything else will naturally flow to you out of your happy state.

I understood this, and it was like “ohhhhh that makes sense, this is why I haven’t had all my dreams come true yet, its because I have been working on the right side!! I must first become happy, and then all the rest will follow!” 

And then I realized that I have been doing that already, I was already happy. Ask anyone I know, they would say I was a happy person. It dawned on me that naturally at some point in my journey I had unconsciously realized this truth, that I should be seeking happiness above all else, Money, love, travel, new house, etc. I had already become happy and its true, the rest follows. Slowly day by day, my life becomes better, and each day the fantastic five, My Livelihood, Wealth and abundance, health, relationships, appearance becomes better.

The thing about happiness too is it is a state of mind. You don’t need millions of dollars in your bank account to be happy. Heck, I have had some of the happiest days in my life when I was either unemployed or broke for most of this year, but I was happy because I was finally able to pursue lifelong goals & dreams of mine.

So anyone can become happy, just by changing their perspective on the way in which they see things. Albert Einstein himself said it perfectly when he said: “the most important decision we make in life is whether we live in a friendly or hostile universe.”

In order for our lives to take off, we must choose to be happy and see the universe as a friendly universe, who wants to bring us everything we ask for. I know that happiness isn’t always something easy to reach, but it is possible for every single human being on this planet to do, rich or poor, it doesn’t matter, everyone has the right to be happy, no matter what their situation is.

I know you might be thinking “well being happy isn’t easy, my life isn’t perfect, things always go wrong” and I get that, I truly do. I have had some pretty hard times in the past, but I learned to see them as experiences to learn and grow from, rather than to be defeated by. The day that I decided to strive for happiness over all else was one of the single greatest day’s of my life, although I wasn’t immediately happy right after that, and my happiness would come and go all the time at the beginning. I’d only feel happy if I was doing something exciting which wasn’t very often, otherwise, I’d feel sad.

Now after working on it for a good period of time, and discovering through meditation and cultivating a strong and peaceful mind, I can honestly say that I am happy 99% of the time. There are still things that spring up that make me cry, or feel anger, but it is usually for a very short period of time in which I experience these negative emotions before I become happy again.

Through this process, I have realized that all I ever wanted was happiness. I didn’t want a relationship with someone if I wasn’t happy, I didn’t want millions of dollars in my bank if I wasn’t happy, and I certainly didn’t want my dream life if I wasn’t happy. I realized that being happy was the utmost important thing to strive for in life, and fortunately for every human being on earth, all it takes is a little bit of dedication and discipline which everyone has, in order to reach that state of happiness that we are all striving towards.

We have been taught countless times, through hundreds of books, videos, and seminars, that we must strive for the perfect career, or reach financial abundance, or get in a quality relationship, and we strive for these things, and sometimes they work out for us, and other times they don’t, leaving us to say “oh this secret doesn’t work, what a load of rubbish.”

All the while, what we should have been striving for was to be happy, and the rest would take care of itself.

Below I have gone ahead and written out some of my own desires in life, along with some details, just to give you an idea of what I mean. Details are fine as long as you don’t attach yourself to them. The universe loves to bring you the best of the best, but when you start attaching to specific details, such as life partner must be blue-eyed and dark-haired, that removes millions if not billions of potential candidates from the supply. You don’t need to worry about how these things will come to you, all you need to do is believe that they will, and above all, be happy and grateful, even before you have the life of your dreams.


  • Wake up each morning happy and excited for what the day will bring
  • Having peace of mind towards daily events
  • Feeling calm and happy at all times throughout the day
  • Spreading my own happiness to others
  • Feeling excited towards where I am going in the future, but enjoying the present moment as much as possible


  • Freedom to live an amazing life
  • Living life on my own terms
  • Ample time in order to do things I love; Yoga, skiing, hiking, beach days.
  • Travel all over the world 
  • Being able to live anywhere I want
  • Wonderful experiences happening all the time! 

Wealth and abundance

  • Plentiful amounts of income in the bank
  • Money flowing in naturally each month
  • No more need to work dead-end jobs
  • Debt free
  • Ability to give back to others as much as possible
  • Ability to donate to worthy causes


  • Have lasting energy throughout the day to fulfill goals
  • Feeling good and healthy 
  • Being able to do whatever I desire physically
  • Great at yoga and very flexible
  • Great at skiing


  • Great lifelong friends
  • Find my soulmate: Spiritual, ambitious, loving, kind, creative, loves traveling, someone who wants to make the most out of life! 
  • Happy family members who love and care for each other


  • Achieve my ideal body: flat stomach, toned arms, and legs, sexy back. 
  • Lose about 15 pounds
  • Get more tattoos 🙂

I hope this made sense to you, and I hope you realize how life-changing
this principle can have on your life!
Go now and start working towards beings happy!
There’s nothing quite like it!

Here are a few of my other posts you might enjoy reading 🙂

Why I plan to go after my dreams, and you should too!
8 steps to living a better life
All it takes is one moment to change your life

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The Journey to Self-Discovery


When I wrote Why getting to know yourself is so important in life I feel now looking back, that I was just putting my toes in this big ocean of knowledge that resides in me. Now a few months later, I realize how deep this ocean goes, and it’s mind-boggling. Its absolutely unreal what we are, and what we are capable of. I feel like a giddy school girl who has just discovered the big secret of life, and I want to tell everyone about it!

Three years ago I started this journey of self-discovery at first very unknowingly. I just all of a sudden started to care about my self more and became curious about everything relating to self, who was I, what was this reality I was experiencing, why was I here? Were all some of the questions I began to wonder. I have now been on this journey for a little over 3 years, and what an experience it has been. So much of an experience I have decided to write a book about it!!

This is a journey I truly believe everyone needs to go on in life. Its something you can start right here right now, just by simply saying “from here on out, I will make a greater effort in getting to know myself a little bit more each day.” Even if you only find out that you don’t like a certain color one day,  the process can seem very slow at times, and other times the process will feel like its only speeding up more and you can’t slow it down, and those times can be a bit crazy because you are realizing so much about yourself in a very short period of time, and you are changing a lot every day so it can be hard to keep up and quite overwhelming.

But its all part of the journey. Everyone’s journey will be different. For some, it will be quick, and others it will take longer, but it doesn’t matter how long it takes, what matters is you begin. Take the first step, tell yourself right now that you are going to make more of an effort from this day forward towards the discovery of yourself.



It is the greatest journey you’ll ever go on, it’s truly an incredible ride that makes your life wonderfully beautiful and rich with meaning and fulfillment.  The journey of self-discovery will be the most important things you do here on Earth, we must realize in human form who we are, and what we are capable of. That light inside us wants us to realize its there, it’s waiting for us to remember it so he can guide us to live the life of our dreams.

All the richest of the world won’t bring you as much happiness, peace, and fulfillment as self-discovery will. Its something the rich can’t buy and the poor can’t lose. It stays with you forever if you take the time to do it, and its the best thing you will ever spend your time on, the payoff will be tremendous!

I am not sure now, if there will ever come a time when I come to the end of my journey, it’s not something that you can really see the finish line on, because even once you feel like you know everything there is to know about yourself, you’ll discover something else, and the journey continues. If you are in a hurry or want results instantly, you should instead start with learning the art patience, because self-discovery is a lifelong process, you don’t merely wake up one day and know who and what you are. If it were that simple, then everyone on planet earth would be living to their fullest potential, which we all know isn’t the case.

The world is a bit of a mess right now, but that doesn’t mean things are not happening. Behind the scenes, millions of people are on the journey of self-discovery already, and are remembering who they are. This is an extraordinary time in human history because humans are becoming more conscious, we are rising from the slumber we have been enduring for many ages, but those times are over and humanity is waking up. Humanity is going to accomplish great things in the next years, and if you don’t want to miss out, I suggest hopping on the self-discovery train as soon as possible!

Unfortunately, though, a lot of people won’t ever take the first step on the path of self discovery, and its very unfortunate that they dont, but they get caught up in their version of reality and dont ever take the time to do this. When I asked people I know how much time people put into self discovery, I was suprised to be met by blank stares, unsure of what I meant.

“You know… Like how much time do you take each day to get to know yourself? Self-reflection, reading, writing, learning about who you are, that type of thing?’

Still nothing. This surprised me greatly since I truly believe this is one of the best journeys one can and should ever go on in life. But I realize that I am only concerned over my own actions, and I can force someone else to do this. I can just share my own experience and hope that someone else might resonate with it, and use their own decision making process to determine that this is something they would like to do.

I truly believe that to change the world, it begins with ourselves. We must learn about who we are, and what we are capable of, and above all us, we must learn to love ourselves like nothing else.

Below I have an entry I wrote in my journal that I would like to share with you.

October 20th, 2017

I am so tired of this whole idea that we as humans have limits. We come to earth and in the human body, and we experience limitations from the very start. Mainly with our minds, which controls most everything else we do. We feel our minds are limited and we never bother to learn how they work, or how one could improve it. We actually poison it half the time with alcohol and drugs, not to mention some of the foods we eat. It’s absolutely insane how little credit or care we give to our brains/minds when they are the most incredible instrument in the universe that science has so far discovered. 

If you only knew what your brain was capable of, you would never even think of harming it again. When you start learning about the self, it will become your one and only desire, to learn more and more about yourself, how the mind works, and the power of thought. These subjects will become fascinating to you because your brain is now eager to learn all about what it can do, like an excited child in first grade ready to learn. When you shift your awareness onto your mind and improving it, the mind will flourish and wonderful things will begin to happen. 

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I was writing about the mind because I believe it is a big part of the self. If we can put our awareness on ourselves instead of on Facebook, or what someone else is doing, or on the television, your mind literally lights up like an excited child who wants to learn everything he can. Your brain will turn into a sponge, learning all the information it needs to achieve the goal you have given it, which is that you want to learn as much as you can regarding yourself.

You know deep inside that you are here for far greater things than what you have been programmed since childhood to believe. You are full of potential, and it breaks my heart when people think of themselves as just a useless human being not capable of anything, because I know how amazing human beings are, and now we are living in a very special time for the planet where we are becoming more and more conscious of who we are, which means that there will be tremendous changes in the next years, we have no idea what wonderful things will be created by people just like you who have realized who they are. Times are changing, and we have all the information we could ever dream of right at our fingertips, its time to remember who you are, and what you are here for.

Below are important tips I have found useful during my journey to self-discovery, remember to keep in mind that everyone’s journey is different, but we are all human beings, and we tend to all have very similar thoughts towards the unknown.

  1. Embrace change and the unknown. Life is many different cycles, some are big and some are small. Like the seasons changing, your life will also change and you need to be willing to embrace that change because forcing something to stay the same has never worked for very long. If you can understand that life is always changing, you will be better willing to accept that you are also changing. There is no rulebook stating that you need to remain the person you are right now reading this, you can and should strive to improve yourself.
  2. Stay in the present as much as you can because that is all there is. I know this one is very hard to grasp for most people. It was a process for myself to stop thinking about the past, and worrying about the future and I do sometimes have to catch myself and think just be right here in this moment. If you can learn to just trust the quiet voice inside to guide your life, you will be surprised by how well your life turns out without you even trying, or thinking about it. Your intuition knows what is best and wants to guide you to a wonderful life, but you need to listen to it. So be present in the moment, quiet your thoughts and listen to what it tells you. This will take time, meditation helps greatly, but just know that this won’t happen in a single day.
  3. Love yourself. I can’t stress this one enough because it is so profoundly important for you to do. I remember when I first started my journey, and I kept seeing that sentence everywhere I turned, “love yourself.” I remember not knowing why that would be such an important aspect, but now that I actually can honestly say I love myself, I feel like I have so much more belief in myself than ever before, which of course allows me to succeed at everything I want to achieve in life. If I didn’t love myself, there would be no way I could do some of the things I do now, simply because I wouldn’t believe in myself.

With that being said, there are so many different ideas you will come across along your journey, and this is just a few tips I have found that has helped me. Writing has definitely helped me to learn more about self, but do what works for you!

Thanks for reading, I hope you can take something away from this post and use it to improve your life 🙂

Here are a few other posts you might enjoy reading!

Why you need to believe in yourself

How to overcome and grow from adversity

All it takes is one moment to change your life



Life update: The battle over my ego

“When the ego dies, the soul awakes” -Mahatma Gandhi.

So I haven’t posted on my blog site now for a while, and at one point I even considered scrapping it completely. You see, I’ve been battling with my ego for a while now, and it was trying to convince me that I couldn’t do this, that I wouldn’t succeed at writing this blog, and I should just give up… I’m wiser than that now and decided not to listen to my ego and instead went off of what my soul wanted to do, and the soul wants me to keep the blog and to continue writing about matters I find important, so that’s what I’ll do. I know who has my best interests at heart now, and it certainly isn’t my ego.

The path I would like to take with my blog is the theme I have been thinking about for awhile, which will be my path to self-discovery. It will focus on my own experiences on my own path to self-discovery, which is in my honest opinion one of the greatest journeys one can and should take in life. During this journey, you will learn so much about yourself, and you will learn a pretty vast sea of knowledge and gain the wisdom of the universe. Seriously, this is some very powerful stuff I am talking about here. The self is the most fascinating journey one will ever go on, and I have been on it for a few years now, I don’t really know the exact day I decided to learn everything I possibly could about myself, but I do remember intentionally stating that I would spend as much time as I could to learn about myself, and my mind. I’ve always been intrigued by the mind and how it works.

On this journey I have encountered many challenges, and road bumps, it definitely hasn’t been the smoothest journey, but I have learned a great deal in my life so far, and now that I am more intently focused on learning about myself even more than before, it seems to be flourishing. When you focus on a child, the child does better knowing that you’re watching. So the same thing happens when you start to focus on yourself, and I can’t even explain how much you will want to improve yourself and the rest of your life… But more on self-discovery another time!

I want to share with you something that has happened to me over the last few weeks. I have been absolutely terrified to share some of my deeper posts because my ego was getting in the way, making me worried about what other people would think about what I had to say.

I went from being terrified one month ago, to here in the present moment, where I can post some writings I never once thought I would post. Below are some of my personal writings, but I feel compelled to share them with you. These are entries I wrote in my journal that help me keep tabs on what I am experiencing each day because I am growing a lot and its hard to keep up sometimes with what I learn each day, and this ego fading is what I have been undergoing over the last few weeks.

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September 24th, 2017

I have been struggling lately, over the past couple of weeks, over a battle with my ego. As it would seem, my ego is who I think I am. My first and last name, my experiences, the person I think that I am, and who everyone else thinks I am.

It’s not that I don’t care about others, I do deeply. Its that I don’t care what others think of me, or at least I don’t want to. But whenever I try to get out of this damn social trap I am caught in, my ego sucks me back in reminding me about how much I crave the approval from others.

I have been struggling to write on this blog lately because of this very fact. I am getting more and more traffic now coming to my site, which means people are actually reading my stuff, which absolutely terrifies me, and I don’t know why. I actually have always been fearful of that, other people reading my work, which is kinda silly since I do have a blog which is public to anyone and everyone to see it., and a big dream of mine is to be an author.

“But how can you be an author if you’re scared of people reading your book?” My ego points out.

Writing my thoughts out for the world to see is far too terrifying. I could never do that. I don’t think I could be a writer. But I feel like this is what I need to do in life. Ugh, the conflict! 

If you saw how many drafts I had going on of stuff I have written previously and is now collecting dust in the “draft area” of my site, you would either laugh at me or feel plain bad for me.

I just can’t bring myself to post some of this stuff I write about, and I dunno why. Why am I so scared to put my writing out there?

Even when I look back on my very first blog post, it is extremely evident that I was nervous about posting it… Every single post I have ever posted I have been nervous, some of which I quickly remove immediately after anyway… I want to be a writer, yet I am terrified of people reading my work. This doesn’t seem like a very good fit. 

So I realize that this is an issue I have, and I do need to work through it because I do feel like this is part of my life purpose, to write out some of the stuff I know in order to help share my knowledge with others, and I really can’t do that if I am scared to share my work…

I need to get over this ego issue because it is quite silly if you ask me, constantly worried about what other people are thinking of me, worried about their approval, which they don’t even know the real me anyway, so what does it matter what they think of me?

October 14th 

I have been doing my best to not plan my life out for a while now when I realized that no matter what I would plan out, nothing ever happened in the way I expected. So I just decided to quit planning and trust that the universe, AKA the same force that guides the stars, guides my life as well, and knows whats best for me. 

It’s a scary thing to do, the transition from being in control of our lives to let go of our expectations and attachments and truly allowing the universe to take over. It has been a scary journey but boy has it ever been amazing. 

What I learned last night is life changing. Its like, wow, every day that passes I realize more and more what I am truly capable of. What I can accomplish in this lifetime. Who I can become and the impact I can have on others. The challenging part is who to listen to. There are different parts of you that you may or may not be aware of, but they are there regardless and want to give you feedback on how to live your life.

One voice is your ego. He/she is there mostly always, he never rests, and even when it is time to rest, your ego doesn’t want to go to bed because he has lots of stuff to do and say. He is pretty loud and annoying, he wants attention, he wants to be seen and heard. Most people listen to this voice without giving it a second thought, but the issue here is this voice can be extremely negative and will create negative beliefs and patterns in your brain, it has been led to believe that it lives in a hostile universe. We must question everything the ego tells us to do, knowing exactly what it is after, which doesn’t have our highest self in mind. The only resource your ego has to work with is our memories, so it will pull information out from the past and remind you as to why you should or shouldn’t do something. weight loss goals can be sabotaged very easily by the ego because it will tell you all the reasons (from past memories) of why you won’t succeed, like you’re a comfort eater, or you feel terrible at the gym, so you end up quitting. The ego is the voice that lives in fear, and we’ve asked to move in.

The second voice we can choose to listen to, call it whatever, intuition, inspiration, the divine, God, it can come in various names. This voice is the quiet part of you that most of us fail to even notice is there. There is a reason why meditation is such a powerful tool. It helps to quiet the ego so that we can listen to the quiet voice within that only wants whats best for us. When you begin to listen to inspiration over memory/ego wonderful things begin to happen, it’s extraordinary what starts popping into your life when you allow it.

Your life truly begins to take off when you quit listening to the ego, and instead, listen to the Divine, let go of expectation or attachment to any result or outcome and let the universe guide you. And above all, love yourself like there is nothing else.

October 17th

So it has been one month now since I started to really focus on my ego, and what it was, and all the things it was telling me to do., something of which I hadn’t really done much of in the past, but the ego seemed to be getting more and more in the way, so I started to focus my awareness on it. What an interesting ride this has been, I have actually been working on my ego, and it seems like I’ve done a good job at quieting it!

I have been doing more meditation and yoga lately, and it has really helped me to distinguish the different voices within and to know what my ego is even concerned with so I can help work on those aspects… It feels like my ego has slowly been diminishing over the last few weeks, and each day I become more and more confident, and more in love with myself than ever before. It feels like a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders and Now I am free of worry, anxiety, approval of others, fear of the unknown, I am sure I could go on, but you get the idea.

My mind is clear and focused like never before. I have actually been writing more than ever before and pursuing my lifelong dream of writing a book, specifically a book about the story of my life, which has been a very interesting journey so far, and I have learned so much already and it’s only just the beginning.

I’ve never received so much inspiration in my life as I am right now, I believe with a full heart that it is because I have quieted my ego and finally started to listen to the voice within.

I don’t feel like I will ever completely get rid of my ego, that is an extremely hard thing to do that would take many years of practice, but I do believe that I now am in the drivers seat of my life for the first time, and my ego is riding in the backseat where it should be, and I can take advice from her if I feel the need, but for the most part I listen to my soul. I feel like I can now post freely on any topics I feel inspired to write about, without my ego getting in the way and sabotaging me.



The fact that I am brave enough to post this, which is my own personal reflections, shows myself that I am letting go of what the ego is worried about, and a big worry for the ego is what others will think of you, which does prevent a lot of people from going after their dreams in life because they are concerned about what others will think. We get caught in this illusion our ego creates about what life is and who we are, that we really do believe it, never reaching for more in life because we have convinced ourselves that we are nothing more than what our egos believe. This illusion prevents us from living our grandest life because we get trapped in this fear mindset which is where the ego lives… And we are his roommate that does everything he asks without question, and well continue to do this up until we start focusing in on what he is asking from us and why, then going from there.

I used to write and think to myself, I don’t even know why I bother writing. There is no way I would ever be able to share some of my stuff on the internet with anyone and everyone able to read it. I used to look at others who were accomplishing so much in life and wish I could do the same thing, but I thought I would never have the courage to do any of that.

But now I feel free and able to do anything I want. My potential has finally been revealed to me, and its a truly beautiful thing. We are capable of so much more than we think we are, and we fail to realize this because we let the ego run the show, who never allows us to experience the magic in the present moment, and the ego doesn’t want you doing anything that could cause you to feel guilty, shameful, rejected, fearful, and so it tries to keeps you safe and secure living a very limited life of mediocracy.

Your life is up to you and you only, and one of the first steps to improving your life is to figure out who you are, go on the journey of self-discovery and you will truly be amazed at what you find out about yourself, and what you are capable of.

Please take a look at my other post if you want to learn more about
getting to know yourself:

Why getting to know yourself is so important in life

I feel I am finally free to do what I came to earth to do, which I have figured out is to write and share my message, which I am beginning to understand clearer and clearer each day. I feel I can finally write about any topic I wish, no matter how crazy it may seem, and I will be able to actually share it because my ego won’t stop me! Well, it might still try, but I hope I will continue to win the fight!

Please feel free to leave me comments about your experiences with your own egos!
Thanks for reading 🙂

Other posts you might enjoy:

The Journey to Self-Discovery

8 steps to living a better life

All it takes is one moment to change your life

Self-doubt is such a bitch