As the year 2017 comes to an end, I can’t help but always take some time to reflect back on everything I have accomplished, or not accomplished during the year. It is always quite fascinating for me to look back and see how far I have come in just a year, thinking wow, if I could do all that in a year, think of how much I can do in 5 or 10 years.
Thinking big picture like that has always been my strength. I see long-term, what my life can look like in 10 years if I keep doing the things I am doing every day. I see visions of my future self and that is what keeps me moving forward in life. I visualize myself achieving long before it happens, in reality, some goals that I desire.
I don’t worry about things that aren’t in my control, which includes everything outside myself. I cant control the weather, the environment, other people, the animals, or the world. I can only control my own self. Life is such a fascinating journey, and it only feels like I just begun.
I feel more conscious every day and it has started to become a thrilling hunt. I want more. The more and more I understand, the more I want to understand more, and then the flow stops. Maybe I get information overload and I need to take a step back to catch up? It comes in ups and downs, I will either be like high in the clouds, or right down to reality.
So without further ado, let me go back to January 1st, 2017 the first day of the new year.
I was still in the Amway business, so a lot all of my new year’s resolutions were business related, but here the main ones anyway:
- Become a vegetarian – (I did this in August!)
- Build Amway business to a specific level- (I quit after 16 days of the new year…)
- Reach Ideal body (I lost 20 pounds but still not at ideal weight)
I quit Amway on January 16th and never looked back. It felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and I felt free. Freedom to do whatever I wanted in life again, without having to answer to anyone. I truly understood what freewill meant.
From there, I booked a flight to California leaving a day after my 26th birthday, I made an agreement to myself to always no matter how busy life got, that I would take myself on a trip for my birthday. For my 26th bday, I choose Los Angeles but ended up renting a car and driving up along the coast to Santa Barbara. Such an incredible time, and even though it was a fairly simple trip, it still pushed me out of my comfort zone.
Makes me even more grateful now due to all the wildfires in California destroying that whole area I got to explore last year. Read: My thoughts on the California Wildfires
Also, once I quit Amway, I decided I would like to start skiing again, so I started going out to Canmore for a night here and there, I ended up meeting Grant from South Africa, and we started seeing each other. We dated for 2 months before we mutually decided to end it, but during the time we dated, he taught me how to ski, which was awesome!
In March, I lost my job at the cafe that I was at for over 4 years. I had told God previously that whenever He wanted me to quit, that if Sherry just would come over and yell at me I would take that as a sign. The day she yelled at me, I was super sick, so my mental clarity wasn’t there either, so I basically snapped and walked out. Upon leaving the building I felt a big smile spread across my face. I was done. Finally, after 4 years I was walking away from the place that had me trapped because the money was really good. I was finally free!
Worry came and went, mostly because when I quit my job I only had $300 in my bank. But somehow I knew I would be alright, and I always made do. I was unemployed for 2 months during which time I started writing a lot, and I started this very blog!
It was during this time that I prayed to God for an adventure. I was so bored, and I didn’t want to spend another summer in Calgary, I wanted to go somewhere! I craved an adventure! But unfortunately, I only had $13 in my bank account, which couldn’t even afford me a tank of gas.
God answered my prayers though and presented me with the Mobilize jobs company. Which sent me out to Revelstoke to work and live. I was so excited I could hardly contain myself! Life was so incredible!
So on May 23, I gave my keys to my landlord, got in my car, and once again drove west. I was full of excitement and anxiety for what I was about to experience. I had no idea what to expect.
Revelstoke was amazing though, looking back sure there were some challenging times, specifically working all those graveyard shifts at Denny’s, but all in all, what a fantastic experience. I grew so much in the two months I was there.
Working at Denny’s, living with my roommates Tamika, and Camila, getting our little bunny Kiwi, meeting and seeing Mark for those two months, and of course, going on day trips to the beach or going on hikes surrounded by the surreal beauty of the mountains.
I spent my evenings outside blown away by the view from my very own patio. What a tremendous experience that was, and it was worth every single fear or worry that I had going into it.
After two months, the novelty of it all started to wear off, and if the job hadn’t been so bad I would have stayed. But I didn’t. I quit and decided that enough was enough. From there I went on a week road trip, partway with Camila, part way on my own. During this week, I pushed myself and camped all alone and I also stayed in a hostel for two nights.
From there, I came back to Calgary. I felt depressed for about a week upon returning, mostly because this great adventure I had just been on was over, and I felt that I wouldn’t go on one again for a very long time. It’s funny though how time passes by very quickly.
I quit eating meat on August 1st, and it is incredible the benefits I have received. I feel much less negative than before, I am happier. The excess weight seems to just melt away naturally. I feel more spiritually in tune.
During August, I found work at egg oasis, and then during the solar eclipse on August 21st, I had an interview at Valley Ridge golf course and got the job. I thought it was a good sign that it was in the middle of the solar eclipse that I had my interview.
In September I worked a lot and made a lot of money. I had a couple thousand dollars in my bank by the end of September, which I was going to use for a trip to Mexico to get some dental work done, but I instead decided to hold onto it and buy myself a set of skis.
I started doing Yoga in October, and I am mad I didn’t do this sooner, I love yoga so much! It makes me so calm, and relaxed, and not to mention the physical benefits I have received. It has given me a much different outlook on my body!
I really started to actually try meditation during November, after just like yoga I kept putting it to the side even though I knew I would benefit from it. I guess with some things you just gotta be fully on board to do something, body, mind, and spirit. My spirit wanted to, but my body and mind were like no meditation is hard and its a waste of time.
I studied, read and wrote a lot during the fall. I grew my faith more and more by the day, and I dove deep into my own self. My awareness is opening up more day, and I am realizing my full potential and what I am capable of. The more I dive in, the deeper I realize this goes. This is not something that you ever necessarily finish because it is a lifelong learning. When I think about how far I have come in a year, I am interested to see what I can do in 5, 10 or 20 years.
December will be a reflection month no doubt, and of course, I will probably try planning out the new year, just the same way I planned out 2017 (which nothing happened as I planned out btw) but its just in my nature to want to plan my life out. Even just knowing this is a rough framework to follow, which is more along the lines of how I plan things out now anyway.
The main lesson I have taken away this year is probably present moment awareness. I have been trying to remain present as much as I can, which is something all the great masters have taught. I find I am much more calm and happy when I can just enjoy the moment, and not always worrying about whats next. I noticed I did it a lot when I would be enjoying a beautiful walk in the park, but I would already be thinking about what I needed to do when I got home.
Being present is something that one must continually work on because it doesn’t necessarily come naturally to most. The benefits of doing it are extraordinary, you realize how much you’ve missed in life just because you were too lost in thought to enjoy some of the little things in life. Mindfulness and meditation have been complete game-changers for me this year, and I intend to make those a priority come 2018. I have big plans for the new year, but still, nothing is set in stone, I go with the flow, and that alone has led me to some amazing opportunities!
I am confident now more than ever, and I have a very clear path ahead of me, I also know I am on the right path because of all the soul work I have been doing. Life is so wonderful, and I seriously cannot wait to see what it has in store for me!
“I am who I am, your approval is not needed”
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