Why I plan to go after my dreams, and you should too!

“All our dreams can come true, it we have the courage to pursue them” 

Everyone has a vision, a dream  for a better future for themselves. We imagine wonderful events and scenarios playing out in our minds, we see ourselves living amazingly happy and fulfilling lives…When we are younger we feel genuinely enthusiastic about our futures, we dream BIG! The sky is the limit! But then we get older and life becomes… well, real… Tragically for most people that is where their dream ends.

Real life has a funny way of getting in the way of you living your dreams. It seems like no matter what you do, something in life always comes up and fucks you over. Or when you are finally on the right path, it brings a person into your life that takes you on a massive detour away from living your dream life. I honestly think that is part of the design, to make sure that dream you have is what you really want, and you will do anything for…

I feel like ‘living your dream life’ doesn’t come easily for anyone, even the people currently living their dream life, because it wasnt always that way… We all have to go through hurdles or roadblocks in order to see if we want it bad enough. No one wakes up one day without some sort of prior action, magically living their dream lives, it just doesn’t work that way.

We all know that it will take work and we know that we are extremely powerful human beings capable of accomplishing anything we set our minds to…

we all know that, and we all believe that deep down. 

Yet, somehow we tend to forget this power, and we give up on our dreams at the first small roadblock.

I will tell you a little about my story because I almost fell into the trap. I almost gave up on my dream.  I am now 26 years, and I should be thinking about the usual marriage and
starting to have babies.

But instead, I am now completely going after my dream life no matter what happens. And at this point, there isn’t a road block big enough to stop me, and I am sure I will experience a few more yet… So bring it on life! I am ready!


Personally, my dream life is spent traveling all over the world, completely worry and debt free, with a good steady income coming in monthly so that I can travel for however long I desire with no “job” to have to go back to, I just want to see as much of this beautiful planet as I can because I think it is truly amazing.

You can read the whole story here: The moment I decided to travel but I have known this since I was 14 years old. However stupid SHIT just kept getting in the way the past 8 years since I graduated high school, preventing me from living the life that I dreamt about for so long.

At one point I think I gave up on my dream because my life was spiraling completely out of control, and there was nothing I could do about it.

I think due to my reflective nature though, and my strange love for making timelines about my life (I dunno, I can understand my life when I put it into timeline form)
I actually love to go back and connect the dots (events) in my life together, it is like a big game for me, like a puzzle I am trying to solve. Which is why I have been able to better understand why all that stupid crap had to happen to me, why certain things had to happen in my life, which would further down the path lead me to start living the life of my dreams. I had to go through the crap before I could get to my dream. But at the time, it almost destroyed me…Almost.

I ended up graduating high school and instead of following my dream of traveling, I found myself in a long term relationship, I went and financed a new car, I got a “real job”, I moved out of my mom’s place, I was now paying rent, and bills, I was doing what I thought I was supposed to do,I was being an adult. I had what you would call “a good life” at the time, I was in an amazing relationship and we would have gotten married and had children if I had wanted that.

I basically felt “trapped” in this life I had created for myself, and I wasn’t happy, I couldn’t stop thinking about traveling. I couldn’t get this image of myself going out and exploring this world, however at the time I had no clue how I would ever make that a reality. So I decided I should just try to ignore it and hope it goes away.

Real life was beginning to take its toll on me, bills started to pile up and I was getting further and further into debt, I decided to go back to school cause everyone told me to, so that I could get a “good job” one day, which would give me more money and more stability in life, which I remember I desperately wanted at the time since my life was spiriling out of control.

University wasn’t for me though, I couldn’t apply myself, I felt like it was just a huge waste of time(and money) for me because my higher self saw that it was not going to lead me to my dream life so why even bother? So inevitably I started to skip classes, and not study, which of course lead me to fail miserably.

The worst part is that after only 1 year, I managed to get 10k in student loan debt, and I had absolutely nothing to show for it, other than a letter saying I was on academic probation.

Then at the end of my second semester, my mother passed away suddenly…

Yup, my life was spiraling out of fucking control, and I felt like everything was against me. I couldn’t see at the time why things had to happen, I just felt like my life was over.

Then after all this shit went down, I decided to turn my back on God or any other higher power working in our favour, and my whole life was aparently something I had absolutely no control over, and that the movie the secret I watched when I was 16 was all a just lie, and that there was no love, just fear in the world. And I hate to say, but I lost my faith in pretty much everything…

So now, it makes sense as to why I am not living my dream life yet… (I am learning when I write myself) The peices are coming together!

My early adult years were pretty messed up, all this happened before I turned 21. The once eager to take on this world 14-year old, was an adult now, with responsibilities and obligations, and really fucked up shit to deal with. Like I never expected to be planning my mother’s funeral at the age of 20 yet that’s what was happening in my experience. My dreams that I had growing up were quickly being swallowed by this thing called life that tends to get in the way and fucks up all our plans.

In what seemed like at the time, the worst decision Ive ever made, I quit my “secure” job. At this point, I knew that if I wanted a chance at the life I had dreamed about, I was going to have to make some changes. So my first decision was to quit the job I had worked at for almost 6 years. It felt good to quit, but I was completely terrified… Scared of going out to the unknown, I had grown very comfortable working at this job for the past 6 years, it was easy, I liked the people I worked with, and I was making “okay” money.

But I knew that all I wanted to do was go see the world, and I really didn’t see a path that would lead to my dream life if I was working for them any longer.

Unfortunately, after I quit my job, more shit started to get into the way of me and my dreams. First and foremost I was definitely not in the right state of mind to be able to pack my bags and go. I was wayyyyyy to scared to do that, anxieties riddled my mind constantly. I cared way too much about what others thought of me, I felt defeated by life already and I wasn’t even 22 yet, I had an extremely low self-image about myself, I was in credit card debt and student loan debt now, and even with my mother’s inheritance I would only be able to pay off some of it, not all.  And so yeah the last thing on my mind at that point was travel.

So instead, I just sat around at home, worrying about the future, scared of what life would throw at me next, becoming more and more depressed by the day. Long story short, I was in a depression state for almost 2 years without even realizing it. My life was just awful at the time. *(which I will write about another day) *

Then at the age of 22, which would have been the year 2013, I think I “woke up” because I suddenly realized that if I wanted even a small glimmer of hope to live the life of my dreams, I would need to start making some big changes in my life…. It became do or die.

It was a night I will never forget…

I was sitting in my living room, throwing myself a pity party, complaining and whining to myself about how bad my life was. I was crying alone and throwing a fit, what about I am not sure anymore as it clearly didnt matter, but it did for me at the time I guess.

Then all of a sudden,

I saw a clear vision of my future self if I chose to not making any changes in my life, and continue living the way I was currently, and it actually scared me to be honest. I was a fat and extremely unhealthy, depressed lonely crazy cat lady, incapable of loving anyone due to her own insecurities and anxieties about others opinions of her. Working a shitty job and not traveling at all because she never did get over her fears of traveling alone…  And now it was too late, my life was practically over and I was only about 40 years old.

What happened to me…. 😦

And then I could suddenly see a vision of future self, and what I COULD become, and I saw how happy and full of life I could be, if I chose to make some changes. This vision was amazing, and I could feel the love inside me. I was so full of energy and just completely high on life, and I longed to be her!

Then I said to myself:

“Lindsay, you can either die with your mom, not physically die but your soul will die, and you will end up doing nothing great with your life.
you’re only 22 right now, you have your whole life ahead of you still, so don’t let this destroy you, become better because of it” 

Looking back, I believe it was my higherself (God) that was speaking to me that night, (which I call one of the darkest nights of my life because I had considered killing myself earlier that night), but after that night I began to change my life. One thing at a time!

I wish I had this epic montage of my life right now that I could show you, but it was basically like that, I started working out, and eating healthier, and I started doing all this stuff that would improve me as a person. Self-improvement became extremely addicting to me, and each and every day I was getting better.

Eventually, after several months of going to the gym, other people started to notice my weight loss (which was still important for me at the time). But I felt on top of the world! I was actually doing something with my life, and I was beginning to feel like the girl I had imagined myself to be 2 years prior, all happy and full of life. I knew I still had a long way to go before I was living my absolute dream life, but at this point, I felt like I could do anything if I set my mind to it….

All it takes for you to live your dream live is the decision too! 

Here are a couple photos of my progress, these photos taken 2 years apart. When I realized that this wasn’t like a 2-week thing, and it was more of a lifelong process it became a lot less daunting, and I realized that I could do it, even if it took me forever. It was worth it. 

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No matter where my life takes me, travel is the path I always come back to no matter what. I seriously can’t avoid it anymore. Over the past 3 years, I have been trying to run and hide from it, trying to distract and temporarily entertain that inner voice with what is “supposed” to make me happy.

However, it is beginning to not work as effectively anymore, I am becoming more and more restless by the day. I am starting to finally listen to it now… That voice inside that tells me that I need to travel. I don’t want to do anything else but travel, I am not running away from it anymore, and I will do whatever it takes for me to live this dream life of travel I have imagined for so many years now.

I refuse to give up on my dreams. I am almost certain that more shit will come up between now and the day I buy a one-way plane ticket to somewhere with no immediate plans to return, but I realize that when you try to go after your dreams this is just an inevitable part, life isn’t perfect and it loves to test you in unimaginable ways, but its how you handle those problems that show you that you can indeed live your dream life!


I encourage all who read this not to give up on your dreams either, no matter how crazy they may seem!! Seriously the crazier the dream the better!

Don’t listen to what other people say, and stop caring what the fuck they think of you, I promise it doesnt actually matter anyways and you’ll be so much happy when you stop!

March to the beat of your own drum. Do whatever the fuck you want, and dont give a damn about it! You are a badass!

Listen to that inner voice inside and let it guide you. I promise that you will be so much happier and fulfilled the moment you start doing so.

Realize that “real life” will still get in the way, and try to greet problems with open arms knowing this is just another oppurtunity for yourself to learn and grow.

Do something every day that is in alignment with your dream, even if it is something small like reading a blog post about why you should following your dreams.

Don’t settle for anything less than what you know deep down you deserve, and you deserve greatness!

Do not let others talk you out of going after your dream because when you do finally decide to take control of your life and go after it, you will experience trouble.

In turn, inspire and encourage others to do the go after their own dreams, which can and will change the world!!

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